deep breaths...
It was a long week.
I felt like a fool in clinical. Falling behind. Doing dumb things (squirting saline on the ceiling.....*facepalm*), fumbling with things I KNOW. Generally making a boob out of myself.
And I can't stop thinking about it.
I think I have anxiety issues. I'm trying everything. Then I'll go to the doctor to get meds. Because it's miserable. I'm anxious to the point of paranoia about dumb things.
Failing my first HESI didn't help.
And to make matters worse I felt like everyone was talking about me this week. Stupid right? I'm almost 30 years old in college for god's sake. It's not like I'm in jr high. If it was my teacher..then she would've said something TO me. So.... I'm sure they weren't. Maybe.... AHHH!! See? Anxious to the point of paranoia.
Good thing is, today is Sunday. I get a whole new week. Another chance to shine and put the dumb stuff from THIS week behind me. I'm going to study, try to get ahead on school work, try to get some exercise in, and try to relax. Because now, I'm liable to have a stroke.
I'm headed to Mass. To relax, light a candle, and pray. I refuse to go at a breakneck speed this week. I'm going to try to relax. Enjoy life. Take walks outside (because I'm broke and that's all I can afford). Connect with my patient in clinical. Those are my goals this week. And I am getting a physical, CBC, and possibly a prescription for anti-anxiety pills
We'll see how it goes
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